Frustrated with me ...

I am so frustrated right now!! I just had a slight epiphany...

So, my dad, who sacrifices all of his time to watch my babies, called me to tell me he was going to run late to pick up Olivia because of traffic.  He just simply wanted me to call the school so they would have her by the office.  I got so frustrated.  I called my mom, who painstakingly watches Hudson all day long.  I vented to her, she got mad at me.  After our interchange, I realized I wasn't frustrated at dad.  I was frustrated at ME!

Because I work, it requires my mom and dad to sacrifice all of their valuable time as retirees to watch my children.  Now, I stayed home the first 2 years of Hudson's life.  So, this frustration comes from me being frustrated with ME! I want to be the one picking Olivia up each day...I want to be the one comforting Hudson...I want to be the one kissing those scraped knees...the first to hear about the day at kindergarten.  I want to be the one to experience all of this, but our finances at this point just simply won't allow it.  I am blessed beyond measure because my parents willingly wake up early, sacrifice their nice, clean house, and watch my children.  My dad has to plan his entire day between 8 & 2:30 so that he can be available to get Olivia.  How lucky am I? I never have to call in sick because of my kids, I never have to worry about them being mistreated, nothing.  I get to drive up, take Hudson in the house in his pj's and drive away.  I know that each need will be met, better than at home most of the time.  I also know that my children are going to have fabulous memories of their grandparents.  They are always going to feel important because they have the best GiGi and PaPa around.  There will never be the thought that I have had so many times of whether or not their grandparents even cared! They are so fortunate!

I am the ridiculous one! I, yet again let my frustrations put a damper on my mom's self-esteem.  I, yet again griped at dad for not being there.  Truth be told, my daddy is ALWAYS anywhere I need to be at any given time. My mom is always willing to take the kids at a moments notice, no matter how she feels. So, hopefully I can explain this to mom and dad, and they will understand and accept my apologies.  I feel like a real idiot this time....I just let me get in the way again.

Dear Heavenly Father,
Please please just help me to see how unbelievably fortunate I am to have my mom and dad.  I thank you for them, and all they have done for me.  Thank you for the way they raised me, and thank you for the love they have for Hudson and Olivia.  I truly don't know where I would be without them, help me to show them that each and every day!
Amen

This is just more, dirty old crusty Amy....